Constant Catch-Up

24 Days Remain

Let's review.  I have this big fat list of things I'd like to achieve before my Birthday.  It's 24 days away.  It will take a miracle to complete my assortment of giant dreams.

I haven't shared the list in it's entirety because many of the goals are personal. I don't feel guilty about having a few secrets.  I DO feel guilty about not finishing all of them; almost like a number of small failures.  I can't help it.  I wrote it down and the absent check mark drives me crazy.

I do these kinds of things because I've always felt that I am "behind" everyone else. Somehow I missed that edge to get ahead.  I'm always scrambling to catch up to the world. Let me be clear, this isn't about not having certain material items.  It's about experiences that I have denied myself for far too long.  The result, I go big and try to attempt everything at once. Stressful.

One of my closest friends from college recently told me that I never seem satisfied; that I didn't seem happy when I accomplish something because I'm always adding a new challenge.  That pretty much sums it up.  I have to hurry and get to the next level to "catch up".

So, I'll keep my list, and I'll work on it.  Then, I'll work some more.  I'll WILL add one more thing....a little celebration after EACH accomplishment.  Thanks for the advice, Casey.

Things I'll check off by October 10th:

Run 1/2 marathon
Join a running group
Have a solid group of friends I can count on
Have a party at my house
Visit 10 state parks in my 39th year
Take a moonlight boat ride
Read a classic novel (obviously I've done this many times, but not recently)
Buy a fancy bottle of wine
Order oysters
Pay off Student loans
Go one day without technology
40 random acts of kindness (Sooo going to finish)
Tell 40 people I love them (Yikes)
Create my own piece of artwork
AND several I won't share here

Thanks for reading this. I hope each and every one of you feel at peace with where you are. :)