I'm Falling Apart

17 Days Remain

Today, I went to the Dr. for a physical exam.  I decided to do some substitute teaching and a pre-employment exam is a requirement.  I figured I’d be in and out in a flash.  A quick drug-test, TB, etc and I’d be finished.  That is not what happened at all. It was the numbers 4 and 0 that changed the direction of this appointment.

Everything started out pretty innocently with a pulse and blood pressure check.  The nurse was amazed that my BP was so good, especially at my age.  Then, the mammogram talk happened.  “I see you’ll be 40 in a few days.  Have you scheduled your mammogram yet?”

Seriously? I should have been on top of this? Is there something special about the day I turn 40? Is 39 ½  a super-young and healthy age, then BOOM, you’re old and your body fails you? This happens at the same time for everyone?  Amazing! I totally understand the seriousness of all of this, but it seems like I could wait a month. Maybe?  

After I promised to schedule my exam, I was instructed to disrobe, wrap myself in a tarp and wait for the Dr.  They actually suggested a pelvic exam, but I thought that was overkill for a pre-employment exam.

Doc Andersen checked my ears, throat, and my heartbeat in about 100 places.  (Maybe the heart sags with age as well.) I have reflexes like a cat….probably a young one. My height and weight are fantastic; his actual words. AND I delighted in his surprise when he said, “You don’t wear contacts OR glasses.”  No Sir I DO NOT. :)  Of course, he followed with, “Oh, that will probably change after 40.” Not kidding.

Well, I got my seal of approval.  No need for a drug or TB test, but I did need to schedule some lab work to check my cholesterol, triglycerides, and other stuff that is totally time sensitive when you’re my age. 

Turning 40 shouldn’t feel scary, but I was afraid today.  I take care of myself and feel good about it.  Yet, every time I enter the Dr.’s office I freak out. There are a million things that could go wrong. 

Of course, there’s a million things that could go right too.

Goodnight.