I Made it Out!

11 Days Remain

Looking back over the last 40 years, I find that I am often amazed at the things I've overcome. Now, I'm starting to accomplish things that I never would have guessed I could do.  Finally!

We've all been told at one time or another to write down your accomplishments.  I've never really done that. I've kept mental notes, but I have trouble "tooting my own horn".....even in a private journal.  In addition, I'm not really sure I've accomplished much (yet), but I know I've overcome many things and its about time I counted those. 

Today, I had a lot of time to think about this on my 20 mile run.  Yes, 20.  I started out uncertain and slow, built up speed and consistent pace, and clawed my way to the end.  It certainly wasn't easy, but when I finished, 2 thoughts ran through my head: "That wasn't that big of a deal."  "What else can I do?"

Tonight, I'll pat myself on the back for being strong enough.  Strong enough, to overcome things I wish hadn't been thrown at me. Strong enough to accomplish a few things I always wanted for myself.  Here are a few:

• I survived being the chubby kid my entire elementary career. Boy, did I hear about it too.  Don't under estimate the damage this can do to a kid.   I still have a sense of humor and feel pretty good about myself. I made it out!!  YES!
• My last year of high school was torture.  I felt abandoned and completely helpless.  It's nearly impossible to change your course and make things better for yourself when you're still not an adult.  Slow and steady, I kept going and made it out, again!
• College.  Yep, I finished.  I even went part-time my last term because I had more than enough credits.  I worked hard outside of school too; more than most of my friends.  Sometimes  I wondered if it was worth it.  It was. Even though I'm just now paying off my student loans.
• I recognized that I could have better and do better so I left a marriage that did not serve me at all.  I take care of my guys and I do all the things a mom does and many things a dad usually does. PS  My life is way more awesome.
• Last year I decided to change careers. It was so hard financially. Then add in my worry that I was completely wrong about my abilities. Plus a little judgement from a few people that I didn't think would be critical.  It's a year later and I didn't borrow money from anyone and I'm making progress!  Slow, yes....but worth it. Boom!
• AND now..... running farther than I ever thought possible.  20 miles today.  26.2 on October 20th. YAY!

So, when you think you're not strong enough to do it.  Remember the times you made it through.  You'll surprise yourself every time.